Becoming an HST meant far more than a new title – suddenly I was leading resus, guiding juniors and learning to carry real responsibility.
START OF HST 1
After a sleepless night shift, caffeine, awkward questions and one near-fumble, my HST interview ended with an unexpected result.
FOREWORD
Four years of higher specialist training begin – night shifts, exams, burnout, growth and the chaos and privilege of emergency medicine.
Equilibrium
After a perfect birthday week, I returned to an ED caught between grief, illness and recovery, somehow finding my balance in the chaos.
Feedback
A candid medical memoir on feedback, training, low pay, night shifts, burnout, responsibility and the reality behind emergency medicine.
Candy & Blood
A raw pre-hospital medicine account of a capsized migrant boat, mass-casualty response and the adrenaline of emergency medicine.
Divergence
An emergency trauma case forces me to step back into the world I left behind and accept, finally, the career I chose instead.
FOREWORD
A journey through ambition, burnout, and rediscovery as a doctor steps back into medicine to rebuild identity, purpose, and a fuller life.
AFTERWORD
I reflect on how medicine changed me, teaching me to care deeply for patients while embracing a life beyond the hospital.
Crossroads
I fail MRCS Part B, choose a gap year and step away from medicine to travel the world before returning stronger.